BIG 20!

So, today’s the day.

The big day lol.

A couple of months ago I was unreasonably excited about turning 20 but as the days approached, I started getting a little nervous probably because of the feeling that I am running out of time; the fact that each day is a step closer to the grave. It’s a bit much, I know but it’s a fact. My greatest fear is dying with ideas, being buried with all the potential. I have kissed my teenage years goodbye and that somehow brings a little more pressure on me. I am really growing up and I feel an increasing urge to do more.

I don’t know if you can relate to this but I often get a strong feeling that I am not doing enough, that I need to push harder and I have to admit I push myself a little too hard at times. To make sure we’re on the same page, this post is simply an outpouring of my thoughts and feelings as I hop to a new level in life.

I am really grateful for each experience, each person I met, every hurdle that came my way, every no and every yes…. literally everything that I experienced over the past years. My last year of teenage hood was especially the bumpiest but then again, the most rewarding. I remember quoting in one of my previous posts that, “Life is like a ride on a Ferris wheel, at one point you feel like you are on top of the world and the next moment you are hitting the hard rock bottom but the good thing about hitting rock bottom is there is only one way left to go and that is up”. That’s just but a summary of my year as a 19-year-old which had to be mostly in 2020 and a small part of 2021 and as you already know, the highlight of this period was the COVID-19 pandemic and numerous lock downs. Besides that, I had a lot going on and in short, I’d say my highs shot beyond the clouds and my downs showed no mercy. Good thing is I survived. Kukurukura hunge wapotswa, right.

Now I am here and I am more than happy to have made it this far. It’s all grace really. I can’t thank God enough for all the blessings. Just this morning, I started by opening a gift from Him i.e., my eyes. I have a lot to be thankful for. I am so grateful for the gifts of family, friends, having food on my plate each day, access to education, love, hands that write, a mouth that speaks, legs that move, clothes on my body, all the opportunities that come my way, wins and lessons. I could write pages and pages about everything I am thankful for, from the smallest of things but for now I will just keep it short.

Getting published at the age of 19 was more that a dream come true and it earned me the title author. That is honestly the best thing that happened to me over the past year. The experience was fun and life changing. I have gotten to take my writing more seriously and I am looking forward to more opportunities. On that note; please do place an order with me for you to get a copy of ‘Turquoise Dreams’.

Again, I would especially want to express my gratitude to you. Yes, you😊. You’ve been very awesome. You being here, reading my blog post is the kind of support that keeps me going so please do keep coming back.

To wrap it up, I can safely say I have grown a lot over the past year and my prayer as I go on is that I grow even more and be better than I am today.

I had plans for my 20th birthday and the lockdown took those away but hey, we move. COVID-19 is still among us so we still have to be very cautious. Mask up. Practise social distancing. Stay safe.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!